aw anon ... I know very well about cutting and suicide. But I know you will get through this. Whatever you are going through that has caused you get to this point can be healed. God has been there with you ever step of the way He is wanting to heal you. And I know He will heal you from all of this that you are going through. All your pain and suffering. It has a reason. You will understand what going through something like this is like and can help others. You are so very loved by our Father <3