Anon, you've obviously messaged Shaun about this because you want someone to know, someone to care. Well guess what? Shaun cares, I care, all these other people care, and most of all GOD CARES. He is going to lead you to bigger and better places. You need to stop and think and realize how much He loves YOU. 2 Chronicles 15:7 "But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded". Jeremiah 29:11 "I know the plans I have for you". PRAYING FOR YOU.